Literature/History: There are three independent clauses in this sentence. The first two are negatives, and the third a positive. First, Benjamin indicates that he has not described his reign’s political/legal legacy as a boast. Certainly his achievements are benefits of his rule and foundational elements in his definition of Nephite law. He is justly proud of them, but he did not list them to elicit public accolades.
The next clause is the most fascinating. Benjamin states that this list of achievements is not presented as an accusation. In what sense could these apparently good features accuse his people? I hypothesize that Benjamin is here reminding his people of the past “contentions,” against which he has had to fight mightily. One result of these contentions resulted in many defections to the Lamanites (Words of Mormon 1:16). It seems plausible that Benjamin survived a near-civil war, of words if not of armed conflict, with some of the battle lines being drawn between the Lamanite religious/political system (indicated by the false Christs and false prophets) and the Nephites’ traditional religion. It is a reasonable assumption that many in Benjamin’s audience felt at least some sympathies for the losing side. In this emotionally charged context, Benjamin is giving a message of forgiveness and acceptance to the ambivalent, reassuring them that while he stands affirmatively for one type of political/religious system, he does not actively reproach them for being less affirmative in their own choice. It is a generous statement of peace and love.
In the third clause, Benjamin proffers his main motive: He wants a clear conscience before Yahweh, to whom he is ultimately accountable. It is a summary statement at the end of his career, an assertion that he has done his best. This clause not only describes his purpose but also announces that he will be relinquishing rule.